17 Kilometres

   Today has been such an intense day, and both my body and my mind are exhausted. I've walked 6,5 kilometers, and biked 11, and my legs are pretty much spaghetti at this point. I mean, seventeen kilometres is actually quite a feat, especially considering I'm so out of shape. The extensive biking is due to Theo needing a new mouse for his computer, so we decided to bike to Raisio and back to get him one. We stopped at IKEA for some hotdogs, and it was actually really nice weather, though it turned out I had eaten too little, so I got a tiny bit nauseous, but as soon as I ate a little it went away!
   As for the mind part, I started my day at half past seven, going to chemistry class, and after that I completed some calculations for said class, and studied for tomorrows exam for a grand total of three hours. I've also made an important phone call today, and mailed my contract for my summer job.

   So yes, after being awake for fifteen hours going through everything from drinking free coffee at a mall, travelling 17 kilometres, studying for what became a total of almost seven hours, I'm insanely tired, and I think I have the right to be. I can honestly tell you that there's nothing I'm looking forward to as much as falling asleep.

The gorgeous sunset today!

Coffee and Chemistry

Today's outfit!

   Today has been an amazingly social day, I've spent two hours chatting and having a really nice salad (even though we had talked about just having coffee, because since I've been so busy today, this was also my lunch) with Sara and Lotta, and I later went to an exercise for chemistry, where we went through some of the things we've been learning how to calculate while I was sick, so it was really great for me to catch up on some of the things. Huge shoutout to Nicola, who helped walk me through the processes, and put up with me asking about a million questions about the math. I owe you!
   The rest of today will be spent studying for an exam in marine ecology, and watching the game that's on tonight. I'm actually looking forward to the game for once, I think it's one of the more leasure activities I'll have today, so I'm going to appreciate every single moment of just sitting on my butt and doing absolutely nothing productive for a couple of hours. It's been a while since I've done that.
   Sidenote, look at my shirt in this picture. It's 100% new, I wore it for the first time today, and I'm in love! I actually ordered from Wish, along with a bunch of other stuff, so as soon as the other things arrive, there will be a Wish haul coming up for you guys!

Positivity

   Today I have really pushed my limits. Quite a lot even, I did so many things I would never have been able to do just a year ago due to anxiety and the depression I had back then.
   I started my day at seven thirthy (which is already quite an accomplishment on it's own when you sleep as bad as I have the past few days) when I got up to go to school. Today we had something pretty special, which was birdwatching, one of the perks of studying biology. I'm actually taking this class with first year students and a couple of older ones, which was both nice, and a challenge for me, because it meant that I kinda had to talk to new people. And I did so well, and learned so many names! (Something that's not very easy for someone like me, definitely a sign of me becoming better).
   After that (we managed to see about 40 different kinds of birds, holy crap!), me and one of the other students, Petra had about half an hour before we had to attend an exam so we decided to go for coffee. The coffee was awful, but the company was a lot better. Again, more social interaction, go me!
   The exam passed and it was time to go home, but not before I quickly swung by one of the rooms in Biocity that is dedicated to students hanging out, and talked to two of my classmates for a minute. I don't really know them all that well, so that was also quite an accomplishment for me, and I was so proud of myself for doing that.
   And then, since I've been home, I've managed to study for two solid hours, cook dinner, and write this blogpost, while being a supportive girlfriend and watching the Liverpool game with my boyfriend.
   These may not seem like such extra-ordinary things to you. But for me, who oftentimes finds it draining to be around people (not because I don't like them, mind you), being around people for what actually became close to eight hours before going home, and then working the entire night afterwards, is quite the feat. I'm really taking this day as a sign that I'm actually getting better, that I can beat this, and that I'll be able to get well.

Sunshine

Vegan hot chocolate

   The weather has finally been nicer, and I've been feeling a bit better. I'm not fully well yet (I actually had a little bit of a fever yesterday evening), but the sun being out is definetly helping. So, to feel better, I've been spending as much time as possible outdoors, just enjoying the sunshine both yesterday and today.
   Yesterday, I went out for what was meant to be a short coffee with a new acquaintance, but we actually ended up talking for about four hours straight I had a vegan hot chocolate, which I also managed to spill all over myself (you know, why not embarass yourself right from the start, so you don't have to later, haha). I hadn't expected us to get along quite as good as we did, but that was a pleasant surprise, like always when you turn out to get along better with people you haven't really known before. We talked about everything, from family to gaming to politics and environmental issues, and I had a great time. We sat by the river for most of that time, looking at the seagulls and basking in the sunlight before going back home.

Fries!

   Today was also spent partly by the river, because Theo and I wanted to do something different for lunch, and decided to go to a little street corner grill. We often eat lunch at home, since we almost always have some left overs from the night before that needs to be finished, but I felt like changing things up a bit (and needed a break from studying for my next exam) and suggested we should go out for lunch. I had some delicious french fries. We decided to, now as well, sit next to the river and enjoy the sun. The lunch was amazing, except the fact that a bird crapped on my hat moments after we finished eating.
   I often kick myself for not spending enough time outdoors during sunny days, and I'm determined to change that, I'll even study outdoors if I have to to get some light. Hopefully the light and being out of the apartment will help me feel better, since this fever seems to keep strong no matter what I try.
   I hope you're enjoying the sunshine too!