The Weekend

   This weekend has been really fun, eventful and productive, one of the most fun weekends I've had in a long while to be honest, because lately I've been really stressed and have had a lot of boring things to do, so getting to relax and do what I wanted for a while is really fun and relaxing (I have actually done some productive things, like some evaluations and other assignments).
   First thing after the test I had on friday, me and my boyfriend went out for sushi to celebrate our first complete month this friday. Usually, I don't care about celebrating each month with my significant other, but the first month is kind of special...
   Like, I have found someone that can actually put up with me and all my odd habits and behavior, that's really an accomplishments to be completely honest. Also, a review for the place we had sushi at, will be coming up soon as well.
   Later during the evening we went out with a friend of his and his girlfriend, who are very fun and interesting company. We began with watching a movie, and then went out, which was absolutely great.
   Today (or technically yesterday since this is going to get published after midnight) has been mostly relaxing and I have had a lot of time to myself. I've spent a lot of time doing the things I like, just re-charging for the coming week and the dozens of things I need to get done tomorrow, cleaning the apartment (among other things).
   I also tried making bread in my frying pan, and it was actually a success! I highly recommend you try the same things, especially if you have some dipping sauce, preferably with herbs (basil for example), since those usually suit bread very well. Just a little tip if you want a snack and have no idea what to make.
   Anyway, now it's time to sleep, since I have a lot of things to do when I wake up.
   Hugs from my apartment!

If you ever get to heaven

   A bit of a lesser known film, it depicts the understanding and concept of heaven and hell, good deeds and bad ones, through following a christian family on a pilgrimage through France and Spain. It shows the mindset of different types of Christians. Featuring a cheating husband, two sisters, three children, Elvis and a monk, the variety of characters is quite large.
   The movie itself is shot in absolutely gorgeus scenery and the dialogue is wellscripted, yet somehow, the movie managed to absolutely bore me. I don't know why that is to be completely honest, but it could be that nothing really happens in the movie at all, nothing interesting at least. There is no character developement, for example.
   Or it might just be that it is very focused on religious themes, which I don't particularly like observing through a screen, I would rather discuss them with real people and be able to share my own opinions.
   For those of you who do enjoy a classic, wellmade movie with a religious theme, I do recommend it. For those of you who don't, I wouldn't, since you would most probably find it just as boring as I did.
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Why I Support Abortion

   These are questions I get a lot whenever the subject comes up. "Why do you support abortion?" "Don't you know that's a human being?" The second question: Yes, of course, I am perfectly aware that the it is genetically a human. I got accepted to study biology at a university, I think I know that humans make other humans, thank you. As for the first question, here follows the reasons I support women who want to get an abortion.
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   First of all, as I mentioned earlier: Yes, the thing growing in a womans womb during pregnancy is human. Yes, it is genetically of the same species that you are. But depending, of course, on when the abortion is done, the embryo is either not aware of it's own existence, or it's just a clump of cells. The embryo has no idea about life. However, after the fetus can comprehend sounds, I think it's quite the shade of gray considering having an abortion.
   If a woman isn't ready to become a mother, who are you to force her? I personally believe that a person should never become a parent before they are emotionally, financally ready, have a steady home, and are ready to take care of a small human 100% of the time. If the pregnant person is below the age of 18, I don't consider them to be ready, and most of the time, they don't consider themselves ready. Honestly, I don't think that people should have sex until they are ready to deal with the consequences of a potential pregnancy, but if they do, I hope they use protection. And if they use protection, and still get pregnant, I think they still should have the option of not becoming a parent. You should always be financially stable before having a baby.. Have you ever googled how expensive babies are? Diapers, food, clothes, vaccines, medications, other hygiene products... And the argument of having a steady home, I think explains itself. If you don't have a home, aka. a place to sleep, cook food, do laundrary and such, you shouldn't bring new human beings into this world.
   Just in general, in my personal opinion, people should make sure they are adults before they consider having children, adult in every meaning of the word.
   Sometimes, pregnancy isn't voluntary, because the sex wasn't. Being forced to sexual acts is bad enough, having a baby afterwards is going to provide even more emotional and physical stress, being a single parent afterwards is going to be stressful as well. And if the child were to find out how they got into this world, how would they feel?
   And last of all: I don't really think what a woman does with her body, what kind of choices she makes... is any of your goddamn business! Who asked you about your opinion? Answer: absolutely no one. If a woman wants an abortion, just let her! She has a reason, it's not something she's going to do just like that. Getting an abortion is a tough choice, something that needs a reson, a lot of thinking and it should always, always be her choice to become a mother.
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Yes, I am aware that abortion is a sensitive subject that is rarely discussed openly. And yes, I am perfectly aware that not every single person on the planet needs to know what I think. I just felt like posting this today, and share my opinions on the subject. Besides, no one forced you to read this post...
Keep in mind that these are my personal opinions. I don't want to offend anyone, it's just a post on a small blog. I'm not saying that if you don't fulfill my preferences to becoming a parent, you shouldn't. I'm saying that parenthood should always be thoroughly thought about before even considering it, and what a woman does with her body, is and always should be her choice.

Sleepless, hopeless

   I fear somethings wrong with me. Tonight I got almost 9 hours of sleep. I'm still tired. I have lecture in one hour, and I'm honestly considering staying home to sleep instead of going, that's how tired I am. It's been like this for weeks, so it's nothing new either. I'm just in a constant state of "I need sleep". I'm really starting to worry about my physical health, because sleeping this much and still being tired isn't normal for me. I usually get 5-6 hours of sleep, and I'm perfectly fine. I honestly don't have side effects from "sleeping to little", but now I can't seem to get enough sleep.
   I'm considering checking in with a medical professional, just in case. I don't want my sleepyness to interfere with the upcoming tests, and I really need all the energy I can get to be able to focus on my studies. People might say the university years are the most fun in your life, but I honestly feel like the university is also one of the most stressful and timeconsuming things I have ever experienced. It's still perfectly do-able, but I suspect it won't be if I stay this tired.
   Unless my constant sleepyness reclines during the weekend, I think I'm going to call a doctor, because this is ridiculous, I'm not getting anything done because all I really want to do is sleep. I constantly tell myself "I'll have a nap, and do it later". All that really happens is, I have a nap, and I accomplish nothing but get more sleep.
   What do you do to stay alert/focused? All tips are greatly appreciated!
Sleepy hugs from my apartment!

Messy

   My life has been an utter mess the past nine days, which explains why I haven't blogged as much as I usually do, so preper for a very, very long post about all the latest events. The picture in this post were all taken when my family came to visit.
   I moved on the first this month, and my family came the weekend after that, bringing all the things I had left at home. The first evening we went out to eat, visiting a resturant named Pub Niska (the building seen here on the left). On the second day, my apartment became absolutely filled with boxes and plastic bags. It took me quite a while to get things in order after my family left, but when I finally finished, my apartment seemed a lot more cozy and everything just fit more together. I have missed a lot of  my material belongings, but I've also noticed that I can make it by really well without a ton of belongings. Though it is nice to have my regular wardrobe back.
   I have gotten used to my new apartment by now, actually becoming comfortable in my surroundings and with my neighbours (who are actually really nice). Today, after a lot of trouble,    I managed to get wifi in the apartment as well, actually allowing me to do a lot of work that I've missed out on in the past few weeks. Doing all the things that I love, and need to do (like school assignments for example), is really hard without wifi. The things I do for relaxation, such as blogging, requires an internet connection, and I have felt really out of place when I haven't been able to do it properly.
   The amount of work I have to catch up on is actually making me kind of noxious, I'm honestly really stressed about it, since I have really fallen behind with absolutely everything that has required me to have proper internet. Sometimes I wonder if it's even do-able anymore. I hope so, at least.
   I also feel really bad since I haven't been able to respond to my emails properly, especially those who require a longer answer. My pen pal must be so anxious. I'm going to write her today though, so that I can give her an update on everything as well. I have so much to tell her it's insane... I have a feeling my email to her will resemble a four page essay.
I actually have a whole bunch of stuff to do today. Lectures, homework, dishes, blogging, replying to emails, returning a router...    Things have really been piling up for some reason. At least I don't have tests until next week, which means I have a bit of time to take care of my learning as well. We are currently taking classes about molecular structure, cells and DNA, and all those things are not my cup of tea... I suck, to be more blunt, and it will take quite a while for me to grasp all of it. I'm not exited. At all.
   Oh well, hopefullt, I'll be able to catch up soon. At least, I've managed to stock up on blogging materials this last week, so there will be a lot of new things coming up now that I actually have the capacity to post all of it. Since I have a million other things to take care of as well, having set material is really postive, just one more thing that I don't have to worry about anymore.
   Now I'm going to finally reply to those emails.
Hugs from my apartment!

Not at all

The stories, the drama, it's all been done before
Why should I even get exited anymore
As a crumble, as I fall
I think about you not at all

I have forgotten your hair
The earrings you wear
Your soft and loving gaze
The way you moved with grace
Your voice, your sweet embrace, your gorgeous eyes
The pain on your face as we said our goodbyes
The tattoo on your chest
And all of the rest

Fall

   Fall has started to take over the city quite some time ago, and my little apartment has gotten cold in the morning. Living in an old wooden house, this is one of the few disadvantages, the cold floor when the sun has yet to rise. Still, I love living here, it's perfect for me, though the shower only produces cold water, no matter how hard I try. I've started to walk to school since I moved, and I'm really enjoying the exercise and the fresh air. Since I spend a lot of my free time sitting down, having to walk to school is actually quite refreshing.

   My studies are escalating at a rapid pace, and I find it very hard to keep up with everything. Exams, assignments... It feels like it's all piling up, but of course, it's a university. I'm supposed to be stressed about my assignments and my exams, I wouldn't be worth the degree otherwise. And though it is a struggle, I also find it very fun. I've met a lot of fascinating new people, and even tried new things, though I've only been here for about a month.

   My apartment is coming together quite nicely, though since I'm so stressed about almost everything else, I haven't had the time to properly unpack and really get into living here.. Which is also why I don't consider the apartment "home" yet, I think it takes some time for me. Maybe it'll get easier once I get all my stuff this weekend, hopefully I'll feel more at ease then.

   I have gotten my adress changed though, and I have fixed almost everything else having to do with the apartment.

   I haven't gotten wifi yet, because I simply haven't had the time. Trying to balance everything I need to do with everything I want to do is proving very difficult, and my internet connection is taking the punch. For some reason, I always pictured wifi to be the first thing I'd get when I moved out of my parent's house, but apparently that's not at all the case here. I think I'll get to it sometime next week, when I feel like I actually have the time to focus on things that aren't absolutely neccessary and I have gotten all the things that are currently still at my parent's place a few hundred kilometres away. I think that everything will make a bit more sense then. At least I hope so.

   For now, I only have internet on my phone, and it's terribly slow. So if you're wondering why I haven't updated as frequently; stress and no internet, that's why. I'll try to make a bit time for it in my daily schedule though, and hopefully I'll see you soon again. Enjoy these autumn themed pictures from my city!

Hugs from my apartment!