Sleepless, hopeless

   I fear somethings wrong with me. Tonight I got almost 9 hours of sleep. I'm still tired. I have lecture in one hour, and I'm honestly considering staying home to sleep instead of going, that's how tired I am. It's been like this for weeks, so it's nothing new either. I'm just in a constant state of "I need sleep". I'm really starting to worry about my physical health, because sleeping this much and still being tired isn't normal for me. I usually get 5-6 hours of sleep, and I'm perfectly fine. I honestly don't have side effects from "sleeping to little", but now I can't seem to get enough sleep.
   I'm considering checking in with a medical professional, just in case. I don't want my sleepyness to interfere with the upcoming tests, and I really need all the energy I can get to be able to focus on my studies. People might say the university years are the most fun in your life, but I honestly feel like the university is also one of the most stressful and timeconsuming things I have ever experienced. It's still perfectly do-able, but I suspect it won't be if I stay this tired.
   Unless my constant sleepyness reclines during the weekend, I think I'm going to call a doctor, because this is ridiculous, I'm not getting anything done because all I really want to do is sleep. I constantly tell myself "I'll have a nap, and do it later". All that really happens is, I have a nap, and I accomplish nothing but get more sleep.
   What do you do to stay alert/focused? All tips are greatly appreciated!
Sleepy hugs from my apartment!

Messy

   My life has been an utter mess the past nine days, which explains why I haven't blogged as much as I usually do, so preper for a very, very long post about all the latest events. The picture in this post were all taken when my family came to visit.
   I moved on the first this month, and my family came the weekend after that, bringing all the things I had left at home. The first evening we went out to eat, visiting a resturant named Pub Niska (the building seen here on the left). On the second day, my apartment became absolutely filled with boxes and plastic bags. It took me quite a while to get things in order after my family left, but when I finally finished, my apartment seemed a lot more cozy and everything just fit more together. I have missed a lot of  my material belongings, but I've also noticed that I can make it by really well without a ton of belongings. Though it is nice to have my regular wardrobe back.
   I have gotten used to my new apartment by now, actually becoming comfortable in my surroundings and with my neighbours (who are actually really nice). Today, after a lot of trouble,    I managed to get wifi in the apartment as well, actually allowing me to do a lot of work that I've missed out on in the past few weeks. Doing all the things that I love, and need to do (like school assignments for example), is really hard without wifi. The things I do for relaxation, such as blogging, requires an internet connection, and I have felt really out of place when I haven't been able to do it properly.
   The amount of work I have to catch up on is actually making me kind of noxious, I'm honestly really stressed about it, since I have really fallen behind with absolutely everything that has required me to have proper internet. Sometimes I wonder if it's even do-able anymore. I hope so, at least.
   I also feel really bad since I haven't been able to respond to my emails properly, especially those who require a longer answer. My pen pal must be so anxious. I'm going to write her today though, so that I can give her an update on everything as well. I have so much to tell her it's insane... I have a feeling my email to her will resemble a four page essay.
I actually have a whole bunch of stuff to do today. Lectures, homework, dishes, blogging, replying to emails, returning a router...    Things have really been piling up for some reason. At least I don't have tests until next week, which means I have a bit of time to take care of my learning as well. We are currently taking classes about molecular structure, cells and DNA, and all those things are not my cup of tea... I suck, to be more blunt, and it will take quite a while for me to grasp all of it. I'm not exited. At all.
   Oh well, hopefullt, I'll be able to catch up soon. At least, I've managed to stock up on blogging materials this last week, so there will be a lot of new things coming up now that I actually have the capacity to post all of it. Since I have a million other things to take care of as well, having set material is really postive, just one more thing that I don't have to worry about anymore.
   Now I'm going to finally reply to those emails.
Hugs from my apartment!

Not at all

The stories, the drama, it's all been done before
Why should I even get exited anymore
As a crumble, as I fall
I think about you not at all

I have forgotten your hair
The earrings you wear
Your soft and loving gaze
The way you moved with grace
Your voice, your sweet embrace, your gorgeous eyes
The pain on your face as we said our goodbyes
The tattoo on your chest
And all of the rest

Fall

   Fall has started to take over the city quite some time ago, and my little apartment has gotten cold in the morning. Living in an old wooden house, this is one of the few disadvantages, the cold floor when the sun has yet to rise. Still, I love living here, it's perfect for me, though the shower only produces cold water, no matter how hard I try. I've started to walk to school since I moved, and I'm really enjoying the exercise and the fresh air. Since I spend a lot of my free time sitting down, having to walk to school is actually quite refreshing.

   My studies are escalating at a rapid pace, and I find it very hard to keep up with everything. Exams, assignments... It feels like it's all piling up, but of course, it's a university. I'm supposed to be stressed about my assignments and my exams, I wouldn't be worth the degree otherwise. And though it is a struggle, I also find it very fun. I've met a lot of fascinating new people, and even tried new things, though I've only been here for about a month.

   My apartment is coming together quite nicely, though since I'm so stressed about almost everything else, I haven't had the time to properly unpack and really get into living here.. Which is also why I don't consider the apartment "home" yet, I think it takes some time for me. Maybe it'll get easier once I get all my stuff this weekend, hopefully I'll feel more at ease then.

   I have gotten my adress changed though, and I have fixed almost everything else having to do with the apartment.

   I haven't gotten wifi yet, because I simply haven't had the time. Trying to balance everything I need to do with everything I want to do is proving very difficult, and my internet connection is taking the punch. For some reason, I always pictured wifi to be the first thing I'd get when I moved out of my parent's house, but apparently that's not at all the case here. I think I'll get to it sometime next week, when I feel like I actually have the time to focus on things that aren't absolutely neccessary and I have gotten all the things that are currently still at my parent's place a few hundred kilometres away. I think that everything will make a bit more sense then. At least I hope so.

   For now, I only have internet on my phone, and it's terribly slow. So if you're wondering why I haven't updated as frequently; stress and no internet, that's why. I'll try to make a bit time for it in my daily schedule though, and hopefully I'll see you soon again. Enjoy these autumn themed pictures from my city!

Hugs from my apartment!