Time

I've slowly started to realise that I need to take more alone time. I need more time away from everyone, more time for concentration, for my hobbies and all the other things I usually do when I'm alone. Though it's a hard decision to make, since I will miss all the activities I share with people, I know it's something I need to do. For example, I almost never have the time to read books anymore, or to work on my own, and that breaks my heart. Literature is such a huge part of my life (or at least it used to be), and one of my biggest passions. I also haven't been drawing a lot lately, which is also somthing that is really hard to be without.
I have been spending a lot of my time outside my apartment (especially this past week), and that has been stressed me out. I've decided to take this sunday and do all the things I want to today, since I feel like I have missed out on a lot of personal time. Everyone needs a little daily "me-time", and not getting that can be very hard, for some worse than others.
I won't be isolating myself completely, of course not. This is about choosing to do what I want in the moment, not cutting people out of my life. I care about everyone I hang out with, and everyone I talk to. But I need to do all the other things I love too, not just go out constantly (which has really done a number on my sleep schedule as well). I need to write, read and draw, as much as I possibly can. It calms me down, and takes away all the stress my daily life causes me to experience.
Hugs from my apartment!

Ghost in the Shell

Yesterday, I went to the movies to see Ghost in the Shell. I was actually familiar with the original, so I was (just like with Beauty and the Beast, which you can read about here) a bit scared that they would have ruined the story completely. Luckily enough, they hadn't.
Major (played by the always fabolous  Scarlett Johansson) gets her brain salvaged when she is about to drown, and her mind is put into a fully synthetic body and used as a weapon against terrorism. The only problem in her life, is the re-accuring glitches she suffers. However, when a new master of terror emerges, she is forced to reevaluate her whole life and how she views herself, finding a completely different perspective on her life.
There is really nothing for me to complain about regarding this film. I loved everything; the scenery, the futuristic setting, the actors and the characters in general (not to mention that Scar-Jo is one of my personal favorite actors). I only wish it had lasted longer, but that's really not a complaint. I would highly recommend watching the movie, especially for sci-fi and anime fans.

Decisions

There are some choices in life, that can be made just like that. Am I having pizza or hamburgers for dinner? Are we going to the movies to watch the most recent Star Wars movie? Should I get registered at a gym? And then there are the decisions that take time to make. Should I take this job, or the other one? Should I move across the country for new opportunities? Should I divorce my husband or stay with him?
We all choose what decision are supposed to take time, and what choices we can make in an instant. For some, cutting their hair takes a lot of thinking and a lot of time, some just book an appointment with a hairdresser and get it done. But there is never a wrong amount to wait for a decision to be made, you should always make it when it feels right, no matter if it takes us a second, a month or a year.
The choices we make in life, define us as individuals. Take time to make your decision, so you can be certain it's the right one to make.

Why I dislike Youtube

   I've always loved youtube. It was the opposite of television; you could express your opinions freely, you could be openly gay, and no one would bat an eye. There was nothing that couldn't be discussed or expressed, and it was a free community. Creators could make money for doing what they love (and since I would love for myself to have a career as a writer, I viewed this as amazing). It was a new, fresh approach and it accepted everyone.
   However, as most of you know, Youtube has changed again. And again, it has changed for the worse. Now, people need to avoid certain words and phrases and censor their content if they want to make the money they used to, or even in some cases even stay on Youtube. This is really upsetting to me. Of course, I won't stop watching youtube, since I love a lot of the creators on the platform, but I'm really disappointed in whoever approved this change.

   My favorite content creator, Rob Dyke, runs a true crime channel, which doesn't go along with the new "guidelines" (*cough* soft censorship *cough*) and he and a lot of other youtubers who does the same kind of content has almost completely lost their income. This makes me incredibly sad, and actually quite upset.
   And some might say things along like "oh boohoo, they don't earn the same enormous amount they used to do. Why does it make a difference?" First of all, do you have any idea how hard it is to run a youtube channel, and how much money goes in to it? You might never have considered this, but the equipment, the tours, making their merch... It all takes money. And you know... They're human, so they're probably going to need food or shelter. Most youtubers make no more than you (or if you don't have a job) your parents do.
   But what makes me the most sad and upset, is that the creator's freedom has been taken away. I feel like we should always have the right to express ourself, as long as we don't hurt others. And no, these youtubers aren't hurting anyone. If you don't like the content, don't watch it.
   Expressing yourself shouldn't mean you have to censor yourself. You should be able to be yourself without having to think about everyone else's opinions, you are an individual and you should be allowed to.

Day #101 Walking Distance

I've started walking everywhere I need to go, even if it's a longer distance. It's surprisingly not too time consuming and I manage to burn a lot of calories by just walking around. Besides, since I live in the city, I rarely need to walk more than a few kilometres at a time.
Today, for example, I ended up walking just over 9 kilometres just going to my lecture, and the day is far from over. Sadly, it's raining a little bit, so I might not go for an evening walk even though I'd actually prefer to (I'm afraid I'm about to get sick, and there is just no time for that right now).
This is something I'd recommend for everyone, especially people who really don't have the time or the dedication to go to the gym for exercise. And who knows, you might meet a friend while you're out and about. Besides, who doesn't love a nice walk where you get to observe your surroundings and relax?
#forabetterme

Trying Out Hello

    This weekend has been really interesting, since I've had a lot more to do than I normally have (at least things that vary a little bit more).
   I started my friday evening with making cheesecake and cupcakes, borrowing my boyfriends kitchen. Both turned out delicious, and afterwards I pulled a little marathon, watching a few movies in a row until late at night, when I finally crawled into bed. Before falling asleep however, I managed to plan a new writing project of mine, which I think will turn out great. It is a long term thing though, and will probably consume enormous amounts of time. Hopefully, it will be worth it.
   Saturday was even more interesting. After sleeping only four hours I felt energized and ready to start my day, which I kicked off by cleaning Alexanders apartment, just as a little surprise for him for when he got home. The evening was spent in pleasant company, as a couple we know held a barbeque. Joined by us and another friend, we had a pleasant dinner. The weather wasn't too great, but at least the rain started falling after we were done eating. We spent the following hours playing cards and a Pirates of the Caribbean board game. Despite it being an older game, it turned out to be really fun, and we had a lot of laughs. When it became time to leave, we decided that the three of us would go to Alexander's for a couple of drinks and more hanging out, since the night was pretty young. We had a lot of fun there as well, yet went to bed relatively early (around three or four, I think). Jocke spent the night on Alexander's couch.
    Today has also been really fun. I started my sunday sleeping late. After the funfilled friday and saturday, it felt well needed, and I woke up feeling relaxed and energized. After a couple of hours lying in bed reading Death of a Blackhaired Girl, I was envited out for lunch with Jocke, Alexander and Samuel. I actually considered staying home, as I was still socially exhausted, but when I heard they had chosen a place to which I had never been, I was overcome by curiosity and decided to join them anyway. The place is called Hello and labels itself as "an American Style Diner". The interior, seen in the first picture, resembles that of American burger places a couple of decades ago, and stepping inside felt like stepping into Back To The Future. I chose a hamburger containing avocado (which I'm not really a fan of, but I felt the urge to be adventurous) and some fries. After only a bite of the hamburger I was completely hooked, I will definetly be going to Hello again. (All pictures in this post were taken at Hello.)
I have very little plans for the rest of my weekend, all four hours that remain. I'm going to pack a few books, my computer, some paper and then go back to my boyfriends apartmet for some studying, I have an upcoming anatomy test, and maybe some creative work.
I hope all of you have had just as amazing of a weekend as I have, and that you've gained some new experiences and done some new things. I wish all of you a happy Monday tomorrow, and a fabulous new week!
Hugs from my apartment!

Metaphysical

I have a new favorite song, which I've been listening to for a couple of days, and I already know the lyrics. As an additional bonus, Whimgypsy (one of the singers in the music video) is just like me, a small youtuber. I think it's so great that there are people out there who know what they want, and are struggling and fighting to get what they desire. I want to do nothing but support these people, and I hope that they will, in turn support me. Creative minds need to stay together!
Please go watch Whimgypsy's videos here!

Liar Liar

   Liar Liar features Jim Carrey, in a role that fits him perfectly: a lawyer. The Los Angeles lawyer Fletcher Reede is in trouble. Sadly, the busy schedule of a lawyer makes him miss out on spending time with his son Max, and soon his ex-wife decides to move away with her new boyfriend, and with Max. Fletcher seems to always lie: to his ex-wife, to his son when he promises to spend time with him, at work... On his fifth birthday however, Max has only one wish: that for one day, his father won't be able to tell a lie. And dear God, does it come true.

   With him being one of my favorite actors, I can honestly say that I'm probably biased when it comes to any movie featuring Jim Carrey. However, Liar Liar never fails to make me laugh, no matter what mood I'm in. On it's way to becoming a real comedy classic, this movie is well known all over the western world. This is highly understandable, since the concept is new, and the movie is highly recommended. Imagine a lawyer that can't bend the truth the slightest when in court!
   If you've seen this movie, please leave a comment below, telling me what you though of it, because I really want to know your opinions!
  I would highly recommend this movie to every comedy fan, especially if they (by some miracle) hasn't seen it yet. Laugh more, live longer!

Playing It Cool

You know one of those things you wish you never did, just so you could have the time you wasted back? Yeah, it's one of those.
Dubbed an American romantic comedy, Playing It Cool features a young author, who's been assigned to write a screenplay featuring romance. The only problem is, he's never been in love, because he's been traumatised when his mother left during his childhood. But when he falls in love with an engaged woman, he finally gets to know love, and the joy and pain that comes along with it.
To the people that gave the go ahead at Wonderland Sound and Vision, I have only one question: why would you break my trust like this? You've been involved in great projects like Supernatural and Charlie's Angels, and yet you saw this one and said "yeah, this is a great idea!". You disappoint me.
Despite this movie being a "comedy" I didn't laugh once, even though I consider the amount of clichés laughable. Not to mention the weird character walking around in a hat, acting depressed and sad every time he's on screen. He never speaks, and I just don't get it. Someone explain to me what his point is, but I'm sure it's something pretentious and boring just like the rest of the movie.
From a real movie-lover to whoever might read this: please do not watch this movie, because you will regret it. Despite it featuring a writer, I couldn't relate at all (which should already make red flags pop up all over the place), and unless you're completely free of brain cells I can promise you won't enjoy this.
Not recommended for any audience.

St. Petersburg

I discussed something very interesting with a couple of acquaintances yesterday. The tragid terror attack has been on my mind quite a lot lately. I want to send positive vibes to everyone affected in any way by this, and I hope that you have all found ways to cope.
Something I found very interesting about the aftermath was that the social media outrage was almost non-existent. When Paris was attacked we were met with blog posts, posts on facebook and instagram, the popular hashtag #prayforparis and a lot more. Why is it different now? Is it because the victims were russian? Because it was in St. Petersburg? I just want to know why people seem to care this time. Is the life of a russian citizen worth less than that of a Frenchman?
For the sake of unity against terrorism, I ask you to keep the russia victims of terror in your thoughts. I wish all of you the best, and I hope that soon enough the mental wounds from this will heal soon. We need to stand united in times like these, for now and in the future.

New Haul II Shopping With My Sister!

Another haul video, since you really seem to like those. I hope you enjoy this one as well! Also, if you'd like to subscribe to my channel, here is a link!

Dressing In Black

Look at this picture of me though. I look so cute. Why am I not always this pretty?
I've always loved dressing in black (well not always, I was a very colorful child), but for several years. I feel safe and confident when wearing black. Sadly, dressing like I do is something that comes with a lot of consequences. People often ask me if I never wear colors, or even if I'm depressed because I always wear black. Truth bomb: not everyone who wears black is depressed. That's like saying everyone in a suit is a business man/woman. Still, this is my personal style, and I really want people to understand why.
   People who dress differently than the main crowd feel the exact same way when they pick their outfits. We all choose something we feel is cute, something that we like and something that makes us feel confident. We're not that different, just because we dress in a really different way it doesn't equal to us having a different mindset or different opinions. Before judging people based on their looks, ask them about their personality and their thoughts.

Status Report

I need to start writing down my ideas for posts and videos on paper. I keep telling myself that I'll remember them by the time I get to use them, but I never do. It's a really weird process, knowing the exact thing you'd want to take up, and then a few seconds later it's gone.
Anyway, I'm currently on the road, more exactly located in the corner of a floor. I've been celebrating in Vasa since Friday evening, and I'll be going home tomorrow. My schedule has been really tight lately, and I can't help but wonder why. I honestly don't know, I've just been extremely busy for some strange reason. I keep considering this a mini-vacation for me. So far the weekend has been great, I've met a lot of people I haven't seen since forever, and I've had a lot of fun.
However, no matter how much fun I've had while I've been here, it's going to be really great to get back home. I have a lot of things to work on, and I suspect it's time for spring cleaning for my apartment. I want to clean every single inch of it, it's long overdue anyway.
For now, I have other things to do than clean my apartment.
Hugs from someone elses floor!