Day #59 Sociable

Today has been spent mostly outside my apartment, which is a rarity. I visited #fastlaskiainen which was a lot of fun! It involves every group of students making their own homemade sleigh and going down a hill. Based on both sleigh and performance, a winner is then chosen and the winning group of students got a trophy. I especially loved my own associations, Dendriticum and Biotica, which consisted of a swan for Dendriticum, and a Mario kart race for Biotica. The picture, however is of KemistKlubbens performance (the chemistry association at Åbo Akademi), who almost crashed into the audience. No one was hurt however, which is the important thing. I chose the picture because I really liked the smoke that accompanied them.
I also went out for lunch with my boyfriend and his sister. I really like his sister, she's a really interesting person, and very talkative. I love people who are easy to talk to, and who can discuss most subjects without becoming awkward.
For the evening, my plans are very simple however. I'm just going to eat some tortilla chips and salsa, watch Family Guy and relax. I really love being around other people, but I feel extremely exhausted when I get home after days like this. I look forward to a little alone time.
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Day #58 Productive

   Today has been a really productive day. I edited and uploaded a video, one that was way overdue, and I managed to get some ideas for blogging and even more videos, which will be uploaded shortly (as for my blog, I want to share a lot more of my poetry). I also managed to fit in some studying, even though I slept for a long while, and I planned out my tomorrow completely.
   I hope you've had just as a productive monday as I've had!
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Common Questions Answered!

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What Happened

We can't go outside without fear,

suddenly there are so many insults to hear

We can't display an opinion, without being told that we're wrong

you can get in trouble just for singing a simple song

If you're black, gay or transgender, your life must be tough

and if you're a Muslim, you're really living in the rough

Everyone is scared of everyone, and I'm left to wonder;

what happened?

Transgender people can't use the bathroom

if you're a woman, there's nothing you don't have to groom

Gays can't hold hands, or adopt a child

Global warmth is upon us, no one cares that the weather is mild

If you're a Muslim, you're a threat to national security

And you're prude and lame if you stick to your purity

Being politically correct is all the rage

In fact, the word "lame" shouldn't be on this page

The Earth is dying, most people don't have a clue

To escape we take LSD, smoke weed or sniff glue

We cling to the idea that love conquers all

We're in complete denial of our imminent fall

What happened to us,

I don't have a clue

But I think about it a lot,

do you?

Day #54

Appreciation. It's something that's so important, it's something so fundamental, and you almost never realize you should be doing more of it. Because if you're reading this, it means you have a computer or a smartphone, which means you have enough money to invest in that sort of thing. And if you're priorities aren't completely whack, that should mean you already have a place to sleep, clothes on your body and food in your fridge, which there are a lot of people who lack. Appreciate that, make sure you're grateful for the food on your plate, your warm jacket and having a bed to fall asleep in every night.

Day #53 New look

Today I changed the look of my blog, a little bit at least. I made the colors lighter and a bit brighter, and I don't know if I like it or not yet. I really loved the dark colors I used before, but I was concerned that they got a little bit too dark and too depressing to read, so I decided to try something a bit lighter. I'd really appreciate if you'd leave your thoughts in the comment section. Are the new colors better? Are they worse? Should I have changed color entirely? I value your opinions!
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Day #52 Positive action

Positive actions and positive thinking are often treated separetly. People seem to think that if you think positively, good things will just happen to you, and this is of course very very wrong. They positive thoughts are a great way to start, but to actually reach some positive things in your life, you also have to put positivity out into the universe to get some of it back to you. The more happiness you give, the more you will recieve. When you take care of the world, the world will take care of you. So yes, I've realized that I need to think positive to start reaching my goals, but I also need to make positive choices and do positive things to actually get some progress going. Positive thinking is great, it's important, but it's only the first step in the process of success.

Rejected

   I keep looking for a job for the summer, and every time I apply I keep getting rejected, over and over again. It's exhausting, and it's surprisingly hard to find a job when you don't know people in the city where you live. I've looked for a few jobs near where my parents live, but I haven't gotten any positive responses from there either. I've applied to several places, and I'm honestly starting to feel really discouraged.
   Even though it would be really fun to be free the entire summer, I still feel like I would get really bored, really fast, and I wouldn't really appreciate all the free time once I got bored, so a job would be really good to have. Besides, I need one otherwise as well.
   However, I feel like things will turn around, and I'll find something to do during the summer. Wish me luck, and if you're looking for work during the summer, I wish you the best of luck!
Hugs from my apartment!

Moana

The recent Disney movie has been the subject of much discussion, especially since Dwayne "the Rock" Johnson is in one of the main roles, the demigod Maui.
Moana is the cheifs daughter in a small community on a small Polynesian island, growing up with the stories of the stolen heart of Te Fiti. It got stolen by Maui a long time ago, and everyone besides the oldest lady in the village believes it is no more than a legend. But when Moana grows up into a young woman, she realises that the heart of Te Fiti, which is said to contain the power of creation, needs to be returned. Her island and it's surroundings is suffering from the absense of the heart, and when the eldest of the village claims the ocean has chosen Moana, the young woman realises that she is the one who has to travel to Maui across the ocean, and then find the location of Te Fitis heart so it can be returned to it's original location and restore peace.
Without the traditional story of the female antagonist falling in love with a male character, the movie is something special in the ways of Disney. I fell in love with the Moana character the minute I saw her, and the storyline is great.
I would definetly recommend this movie to everyone who considers themselves to be interested in watching it.

Day #51

Today I cut something very negative out of my life, and I already feel so much better. When people are impacting you negatively, you need to re-evaluate the entire relationship you have with them. Do they support you? Do they make you life? Do you feel good at all around them? Do they give you equal attention that you give them? If the answer to any of those questions is no, then you need to let them go. Friends who don't have a positive effect on your life, are not friends. They're leeches, and you're going to get dragged down with them sooner or later.

Day #50 Knitting

I started knitting today again. I find it's relaxing and, I love the creative part of knitting. Besides, it reminds me of my grandmother, who passed away about a year ago. I miss her a lot, especially when knitting, but it's a good kind of missing. I even bought the same brand of yarn that she used to use when she was knitting.
I decided on making a scarf with the gryffindor colors, red and yellow. Considering I started on it today, I feel like I've gotten quite a long way on it, and I hope it'll be done soon. I really look forward to using it when it's done.
I've really missed knitting, and it gives me something to do with my hands when I'm watching one of my tvshows so I don't feel as restless as usual.
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Day #49 Walk

Today, I went for a really long walk (7.5 kilometers to be exact). The weather was nice, and I felt like taking the opportunity. I walked around Koroinen, walking past St. Mary's church (which is the church in the picture, and a really beautiful old building).
I loved the walk, but now my legs are really sore and I know I'll need to stretch a lot later tonight, because my legs feel really stiff. But I know that I'll feel glad about this walk later this weekend, when I'm sitting at my desk, studying.
I'm thinking of exercising more, since it actually does make me more energized and more happy, and I feel more of the positive effects the more I move around.
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Day #48

Okay, so lately I've been trying to make myself drink more water, and for some reason, I actually do feel better. I never knew water could make such a huge difference. I love this change, it's so small and makes everything so much better. I'm completely in love, and I know it sounds absolutely ridiculous, but I never imagined that this would be such a large factor when it comes to your health and wellbeing in general, it's amazing. I should have started drinking more water a really long time ago. So if you haven't had any water yet today, then this is your reminder to go chug an entire bottle of water right now, because guess what: it actually does help you, and the benefits for something so small are actually quite awesome.

Day #47 Yoga

Today I tried doing yoga for the first time. I tried out a few light exercises before going to bed, and it felt absolutely amazing. I never knew that yoga had this of an obvious effect, and that there wasn't anything negative about it (except the time it consumes). My back feels a lot more relaxed, I feel like I can relax more easily, I can breathe more deeply and my mind isn't as cluttered as it usually is (and I didn't even do a full 15 mintes!). Yoga is definetly something I'm going to continue doing, since I finally found something that makes me a lot more relaxed before going to bed.
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Day #46 Libraries

   Today I finally gathered my courage and went and got my library card to the community library, and I'm really happy about it. I made the concious choice to walk both to and from the library, and as always after some physical exercise I feel really accomplished, and I actually feel more energetic after the walk. I might even clean my apartment, or try, when I'm done blogging for the day.
   I also brought home 3 books, a book on the origin of the vampire lore, one fictional book and one book on yoga for beginners (I'm thinking maybe yoga can help my extremely bad back, posture and make more relaxed and decrease my stress in general (at least I hope so)).
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Happy Valentine's Day

   My valentine's day was spent, of course, with my boyfriend, but instead of doing something very typical like going out for dinner and a movie, we just stayed home. We cooked dinner together, and I made cheesecake for us. We watched a lot of Archer. since I haven't seen it yet, and he really wanted me to (in retrospect, it was a good choice, thanks honey). It was actually really cozy, I loved it, and spending time with just eachother without seeing a lot of other people was really nice. And if everyone wonders, yes, we skipped gifts as well, because we didn't think material things were needed for us to know that we care about eachother.
   In other news, we reached 2000 collective views on my new youtube channel, thank you so much for your support! If you haven't watched my stuff yet, click here to watch some of my videos. I feel like this is a real milestone in what I do, and I'm really proud of my channel!
Hugs from my apartment!

Day #45 Valentine's

   As written in this post today was Valentine's Day, and it was great. I had a lot of fun with boyfriend (we watched Archer and ate a lot of food). I'm incredibly grateful to have him in my life, and I have never before felt so blessed in my other relationships. Knowing that we're nearing half a year together is an almost insane thought, and I'm really curious about what the following months will give us.
   We skipped gifts today, because we didn't feel like gifts were neccessary to show that we care about the other person. If you're reading this... Hi!
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January's Extras and Oopsies

Watch me fail, make weird noises and check out the extras from the first month of 2017. I hope you enjoy! If you want to watch more of my stuff, you can click either here for my youtube channel or here to watch through my blog!

Day #39 Productive

Today I've done a lot more than one person should do in the few hours I've been awake. Reading and replying to emails, writing about 10 blogpost that has been posted after my hiatus, planning out my sister's visit (she's going to be here for a couple of days in the beginning of March, and I'm really really exited for it), doing a few assignments for class and then some personal things for myself. During the day I also spent some time with my boyfriend, which always gets me in a better, more energized and productive mood. I'm thinking of scribbling down the outlines of a few chapters to my private project before going to sleep tonight, and probably doing some dishes if there's time for those two.
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Rings

"First you watch it, then you die." A video has been circling the internet, finding it's way to unknowing victim; everyone who watches it, dies seven days later.
Julia's boyfriend disappears after moving to college. Holt stops answering his phone, she doesn't hear from him via skype... She travels to him, worried sick, and finds that he, among other students have watched the video. Holt tells her that if you make a copy of the tape, and show it to someone else, the girl in the video doesn't kill you. Julia watches the tape to save her boyfriend, but that's not all. Julia's tape is longer than normal, she recieves information no one else has. Julia believes she is chosen to help, and with the help of her boyfriend and a biology professor, she goes on a quest to help Samara, the girl in the video who has murdered several people.
The movie is completely accurate according to the original movies about Samara, which is always a good thing. Filling in a few of the blancs in Samara's story, and gives us even more information about the horrors surrounding her, this movie managed to capture my interest. However, it didn't scare me, unless you count the one successful jumpscare in it.
Despite that, I would recommend that you watch Rings, especially if you're a fan of the horror genre/the original movies.

Split - The transphobic horror movie

Recently, the thanks to the internet, wellknown horror movie Split. Curious after all the drama, I of course went to watch it. Besides, my love for horror movies is well known.
I was surprised. The movie, surrounding a person with dissociative personality disorder who kidnaps three girls, shows just as most classical horror movies, the dangers of a sick brain not properly treated, with adding a slight bit of supernatural senses into the mix. The movie was excellent, and I consider it to be a redeeming of M. Night Shyamalan. I would highly recommend that anyonw who considers themselves to be a fan of the horror genre watch this movie, since it isn't as much as of a "typical" horror movie, and it features a few new approaces to the scaring stigma of horror movies.
Now the reason the internet (*cough* tumblr *cough*) is so upset about this movie is, wait for it... One of the antagonists personalities is a woman. Shown in the trailer with high heels and a necklace, this personality within Kevin, angered bloggers and other participants of social media, because "it is transphobic". I don't understand where this is coming from, when during the movie it is very evident that having a female personality in Kevin's body is not the reason for the horrors surrounding him. Furthermore, they were accusing the movie of "portraying people with mental disorders as dangerous". For those of you who were actually offended by this, look up any real killer, and you will find that they have had psychological issues. Look up any horror movie, and most likely, it's featuring someone with a mental disorder, so why are you freaking out about this particular movie?
I, myself, stand with trans people, and I genuinely believe that not all people with mental disorders are dangerous, and if treated correctly, even the more serious disorders exisiting at the moment, can be a lot less dangerous.

Back From Hiatus

I'm back from my hiatus, ready to go in with full force again.  Now, if you're one of the wonderful people who read my blog on the regs, you're probably wondering where I've been for more than a week. I have simply needed a break. I haven't used any social media at all, simply because I needed to do something else.
I have been really stressed, both physically and mentally. I always get really tired in February, so I just felt like I needed to take a break during the beginning of this month, so that I could work the rest of the month.
However, I feel a lot more energized, more focused and completely ready to continue. To begin with, the extra's video from January is getting edited and uploaded tomorrow, and tomorrow I get to uploading the #forabetterme posts, and a couple of movie reviews. Spoileralert: the two most known horror movies in theaters right now!
I hope your February has started off more positive than mine, and remember that it's perfectly fine to take breaks if you ever feel like you need one.
Hugs from my apartment! <3 p="">

Day #35

   I've always liked these bingo posts on instagram, I hope you enjoy these little pictures telling you what I'd get on some of the bingos!

Day #34 Rewatch

   I've watched Family Guy straight through God knows how many times, and I've decided to do it again. I love the series, it's amazing and I always feel better after watching it. I have loved it since I discovered it, and I don't think I will stop it. I have a connection to many of the characters, and that's the positive choice for today: I'm watching a show that makes me feel better, and which I have a lot of connection with. It might be strange, or even silly to other, but I really love this series, and I think it's an amazing way to make me feel better.

Day #33 Outdoor activities

   I've always loved being outdoors, I don't really have anything else that brings me the same kind of peace and calm as being in a forest or walking alongside a river. It's something I've always enjoyed, and I have a lot of theories why that is. I grew up really close to a large forest, and spent a lot of my teenage years in my outdoors surroundings, taking walks and taking in all of my surroundings.
   So today I went to the park and walked around for a bit, processing things just like I always did when I was younger. Being around nature is something that brings out the best in me. I have a lot of things that I love about a forest, and I miss that when I'm in the city.

Day #32

   I have spent the last few days completely devouring some new novels. I've been reading way to little the past few months, it makes me feel really strange and less creatively challenging and it's become too easy. I need something new to stimulate my mind every now and then, otherwise I tend to go a little bit crazy. My mind needs stimulating, I think everyone does, and reading is the perfect way to do it.
   I have always loved books, they made my childhood educational, fantastic and a lot more interesting. Most of my friends lived far away, and reading stories made my own fantasy world more fascinating and filled with even more colorful characters. It was an amazing hobby, and I'm so happy that it followed me into my adult life.